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December 16 again, so quick?I'm as surprised as you....
Someone reminded me of a song that I posted as a blog...oh....way...way...back on an island far away. In another lifetime.
and of course it got me thinking.
and it got me to go back and read some of that stuff...to maybe understand why I've been such a fricken Scrooge about Christmas this past couple years. I took the kidlet to a friends to decorate the tree, we aren't putting one up, they are doing renos in the apt....so...Kidlet and the friend are putting the lights on the tree, singing carols, I'm feeling a bit blah about the whole nonsense, and sick to boot...
I'm hoping maybe this year I'll feel better about it...but I've yet to be convinced.
Amy girl, I wasn't dreaming I do have a date...I'll let ya know about it after it happens! December 14 you really never know what life has in store do you?So, been a couple weeks again...
I know...bad blogger....I messed up my shoulder, been getting it worked on and doesn't allow for much time around here (cause it'd mess it up worse)
I was feeling prety chiefed about some long awaited repairs being done around my apartment last week....and then I got a cold, which was still not too bad....then I went to take the kidlet to her lessons and I think my brakes are FUBARed...sigh
and then what happens tonight?
I get asked out, by someone I've known for years and chat with off and on....and out of the blue...there it is. I have a date.
maybe it was a hallucination from the cold medicine? November 26 6"Yes, 6"
it's about how much hair I had cut off....I'm still not sure what possesed me to take the plunge, but I do know it feels good, I can actually do something with it after wearing a hard hat all day, instead of always having a ball cap on. Going back this week to get it colored because I hate the dull colour it is. Can't wait to see how it turns out cause I don't know what colour it's gonna be, thinking auburn/reddish...who knows what my hairdresser will have in mind though, and I trust her implicitly so she'll do what she sees as the best colour. It's a Christmas gift from a family member who knew I wanted to do it, I had figured I would get to it in the new year...now I get to start the new year with a makeover already in place, have to start to think what the next phase should be cause maybe I could make it a new years resolution.
I've started on the Christmas thing, just barely though, still have a lot to do...I expect to start hearing about setting up the tree anytime now, oh hang on, I've already been asked...I said in a couple weeks, I may cave sooner, depending on how the pleading gets after the Santa Clause parade.
It's been rather wet here of late, feels like the other coast...late november and we have had no snow...with a few days that have been in the double digits...oh and a lot of rain. I'd rather the rain, don't have to shovel it at least.
Wonder if we'll have a green Christmas this year? November 12 does this thing still work?So, I'm gonna try this again...
I think some of my angst over posting here is the trying to not give too much away. I'd love to say what the hell happened to make me leave "paradise"...I'd love to say what I'm doing for a life these days....but.....I'm worried that some misplaced word could cost me all I've worked for. I could start a new blog, but then I'd lose some of the stuff I've written here...some of it is pretty precious to me.
In life as in here, I'm very much a 'this is who I am, take me or leave me, I don't care' kind of person. I'm starting to realize that that is a difficult concept for some people to understand. I also realize that there is a side of me that some people just don't get!
I've been playing with the online dating world, and I mean playing(I don't get out much and not much in the online dating world makes me want to even make the time to get out)....again...take me for who I am. The pics I choose to share with those who have to see a pic NOW are not the most glamorous....I'm usually in a ballcap or hardhat, if you can't see past that, it ain't gonna work!
In addition to the online dating thing I'm also still playing at mrs robinson from time to time, not someone I see a future with, but we enjoy some similar stuff and mentally he can keep up. I think we both feel kinda guilty about our arrangement from time to time though...me more so lately because there is someone I work with that interests me. Were anything to develop there, the mrs robinson games would end immediately... no harm, no foul.
I don't know if I'm prepared to even broach an 'office romance'...I do however know he is someone I would like to know on a personal level, just friends would be just fine....you know how chemistry is, never know if it'll be there til you get closer. I see potential, I'm still not sure if it's a good fit though! lol If I were to leave my job, I wouldn't hesitate to ask him out....I said to one of my girlfriends that if he were a girl I worked with that I was interested in a friendship with, I wouldn't hesitate to ask him to go for a coffee/lunch/whatever. In reality I'm interested in a friendship with him....in my dirty dreams, I'm interested in a whole other side of him!
Off to do some more visiting.....
CU round? September 01 Give it to meYeah, I know
I'm not here much
and I still miss it
So, back inside my brain, what brought me here tonight was watching the 'Give it to me Video'....and I was reading some comments on it.
I was surprised to see comments about how this video is just stuff she has done before, reworked.
There's a point to it... First time I heard this song I thought 'way to go showing all those naysayers from the 80's what a flash in the pan you WEREN'T' Then I listened to the lyrics...and thought 'yep, that's just what she's saying there, Look at me I'm still kicking ass, where are you?'
Tonight was the first time I saw the video and I thought the intro was old footage....and then I realized...it's meant like the song, to show the world she still has IT, no matter what they say or think...has it and always did! With Madonna there is always a point...you just have to open your mind, you'll see it... I've meant to come here a bunch of times lately..and yet....I haven't made it.
So much to say....and so much going on and nothing happening.
life
still in progress
June 08 still not in the swing...I know....still being a bad blogger....sigh.... I come here and wonder how I ever managed to post on a daily basis...I'd say that I had the time cause I didn't have a life, but I did have a life and that was often what gave me the inspiration to write the posts. I know that I need to start surfing some of my favorite bloggers here, they also gave me inspiration from time to time....my pattern would be open a word doc, start some kind of post, surf and see who was saying what....then see what popped out. I'm sitting here right now, wishing I had a lawn mower, I see a sea of dandelions in the back yard...the back yard is really nothing but weeds, if I owned this property I'd be killing whats out there and laying new soil and reseeding it or maybe even laying sod. It's a shame because it's a nice big yard and the kidlet would use it more if it was more inviting. I keep seeing pictures of Paris Hilton and I wonder if I'm the only person who wonders what the hell is wrong with that girls left eye...maybe it's her right eye that is the problem....I swear everytime I see a pic of that girl I think she's either wasted or she has a glass eye that she can't control. I'm sorry, she's downright strange looking. then again that's just my opinion isn't it what else.... well....work is going well, get to have a day on the water this week. Doing a clean up slash training exercise for Oceans Day, really looking forward to it on all levels...that is as long as it's a half decent day, one never knows what the weather is going to do. I miss being in the Caribbean for the weather, almost always a nice day on the ocean there. Then again, I'm really happy with how my life is progressing, I guess the next big step will be finding someone I want to share it with. I've had a couple flings since I became single when I came home...they have been just that though, flings. I was too busy with sorting my life out and going to school and the like to invest time or energy into anything more. Now I'm at a point that I'd like to have a relationship, but I'm also happy the way things are...I look at some of my male friends who are single and I realize that if they are indicative of what's out there, I'm not that interested in getting tied down. Seems that lots of them want someone who will look after them like a mommy...sorry, I have one kid, don't need another. I want someone who can look after themselves and who can be an equal partner, willing to cook and clean without prompting...maybe even someone who's a bit of a metrosexual. Lord knows I could use a guy who had some fashion sense to help out this t-shirt and jeans, coverall wearing, non-girly girl! hell every once in a while I think I should say pack it all and just switch teams! Then again, I know that things are the same on that side of the fence...one of my favorite sayings is after all 'the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence, till you realize it takes the same shit to grow it' such is life I guess....as always, a work in progress.... off to do some surfing.....catch you all later May 26 Working girlYep, it's official, I'm EMPLOYED!!! woo hoo!! Love the place, and the crowd I'm working with. One of the girls I've been in school with for the past year and a half is also working there...I don't mind being the only girl, but it's nice to have another around, especially one I know I get along with. Tomorrow I'm back to the gym, have to get back in better shape! Somehow over this school year I managed to put on about 30lbs...I weigh as much now as I did when I was 9 months pregnant with the munchkin....not happy about that....and since I know I have to do a medical for my job in a couple months, I best take care of that extra baggage. Somehow when you are wearing coveralls all the time you don't notice you've gained weight...till you try to 'dress up' to go out....ICK... What else...it's starting to get green here, the trees are in bud and I expect they'll all go 'POOF' in the next couple days...I'm so looking forward to that, the view out my window will be so lovely when the trees in the back yard all fill in.Won't be getting any time off to enjoy the summer, but I should be out on the water a couple times with work and we do lots of work in the yard when it's nice out, so at least I'll be out on the few nice days we get here!! Way better than having to sit in an office all day. or being stuck in the barns with no windows.... I'm really liking how the future is looking! May 14 apparently I'm not back into the swing of this yet...Still missing this place, but haven't gotten back into the swing of it yet... Maybe it's just that I've been busy with finishing school and stressing about when/where I was gonna find a job. That stress is gone now, got a job where I'm doing my work-term, finish work-term Friday and start working there on Tuesday, really thrilled about it because it's a peach of a job, one of those that lots of people would like to have, but difficult to get....starting salary is more than I expected and the benefits and pension scheme are excellent. Couldn't ask for more! I'm really lucky that one of the women I went to school with for the past year and a half also got a job there, we get along great and it's nice to have another female there who is as driven to do this kind of work as I am. What else... hmmm..... well....spring is here, sort of...summer will arrive for a couple of weeks and then we'll be back to winter....I really hate winter, but guess I'll be facing it for a few more years to come. Still, I'm looking forward to summer, might have some company visiting for a bit, festival is always fun and some nice weather will be awesome! I'm thinking of getting myself and the kidlet some rollerblades when she passes, it'll be a good way to get out and get active with her...and maybe if she finally figures out how to ride her bike I'll be better able to keep up on the blades than I would on foot....of course that's barring me breaking my neck on them!!! The munchkin is growing like a weed, turning into a wonderful little lady for the most part, though there are days we both want to strangle each other...I'm not looking forward to her teenage years...sigh....then again....if she's as responsible then as she tends to be now, I shouldn't have much trouble...I hope. May 03 the return of island girl?Such a bad blogger I'm feeling a need to get back here, feeling the draw... Could be that I've just finished my program at school...and I'm waiting to see what's next? Knowing me, that's a good guess. I have a work term coming up, and I've passed out my resume to a few people, nothing much happening yet, but I know there is interest. My choice was made well I think....and the interest is from places I'd like to go. yeah back to being a bit cryptic again too, I know.... suffice to say, I'm back in limbo...and I hate limbo...that's part of why I went back to school...too find my way out of limbo! What else...I've done well in the field I picked, had no trouble keeping up with the guys, had no trouble showing them what to do on occasion either! Yeah, they helped me out by time too...Proud of my self and the other two women who completed the program with me! Other than that....life is kinda status quo...the boy is still around by times, whatever... now I'm thinking I should get back to stuffing a funny in here when I don't have much to say. Get back to that whole "7 minutes a day" blogging thing....good way to start I guess...that and coming to visit some of you to see whats been happening in your worlds. C U ROUND!
The woman told the doctor to inform her husband where she was and that she'd be there as soon as possible. As she hung up she realized she was leaving what was shaping up to be her best day ever in the shops. She decided to get in a couple more shops before heading to the hospital. She ended up shopping the rest of the morning, finishing her trip with a cup of coffee and a beautiful slice of cake complimentary from the last shop. She was jubilant. Then she remembered her husband. Feeling guilty, she dashed to the hospital. She saw the doctor in the corridor and asked about her husband's condition. The lady doctor glared at her and shouted, "You went ahead and finished your shopping trip didn't you! I hope you're proud of yourself! While you were out for the past four hours enjoying yourself in town, your husband has been languishing in the Intensive Care Unit! It's just as well you went ahead and finished because it will be more than likely the last shopping trip you ever take! For the rest of his life he will require around the clock care. And you'll now be his caregiver!" The woman was feeling so guilty she broke down and sobbed. The doctor then chuckled and said, "I'm just pulling your leg. He's dead! What'd you buy?" May 08 progressThis last couple weeks have been just awesome for me, due in part to seeing spring coming...it's peeked in on us a couple of days, but it hasn't decided to stay yet.
I think one of the biggest things though is that I have reconnected with some people from my past that I missed.....more than I knew. I've even connected with a couple that I didn't really realize would have thought of me over those years. I've been feeling really positive and apparently it shows....a couple of them have commented on it even.
I met up with an old GF the other day, we have kids the same age and they got along smashingly, they are even in the same school. We didn't know it when we got back in touch...
I'm sitting here typing this with a smile on my face (that has been there for the past couple weeks permanently).....I spent the afternoon in a greenhouse full of butterflies of all shapes and sizes....it was such an amazing sight and experience....one that filled me with peace and happiness....I'm hoping to share it with those I care about.
I'm coming along in my decision for the fall, it's all looking good and I'm pretty confidant it will all come together without much of a hitch.
Yes life is still in progress.....but that is the nature of it.
I'll be back to add to this later I think....I had some other 'tidbits' I wanted to share, but I'm not going to have the time right now (should have started this on a word program instead of straight to the blog....)
have a great day all
I am April 02 look at me bloggingYeah, here's me, sick and feeling horrid. I go and visit Notes from the Equator and get inspired.
IG OH MY GOD!!! that was a lightbulb moment I just realized I want to get back to 'islandlife' and I can, under my own steam in a few years...thanks! So....... CLICK (that's so funny, on so many levels for me....i may save and expand blog this comment...) I loved it too, wasn't what I expected, but was a powerful movie, I can't wait to see 'Reign over me'. IMDb.....love it....never posted thanks for the menu above, that was what really flipped the switch for me. I miss the opportunity to eat at so many fabulous places, fantastic food I never get here....I suppose I could if I had a good income, but not like there. have a great one don't miss the next meeting! c u round! I do miss Island life a lot. I knew I did, but hadn't really considered the reasons. One is how much I dislike winter....cold.....snow......I loved the heat, humidity and all. Another is that in living on a 'resort' island offers the opportunity to run in circles you might elsewhere not be privy to, if you get my drift..... I love being on the ocean, I love it more when I can swim in it without worrying about hypothermia.....sunburns only hurt for a while..... I had been thinking that I would probably try and 'stay put' til I had my trade, whichever I settle on and then I would look at heading to the other coast again....but..... I may consider broadening those horizons. There are a ton of factors to take into account, first and foremost is kidlet and her education, school and extra-curricular. I know what potential is there....if you are willing. And I could do it, me, under my own steam and control. that was a powerful revalation. And the other place I went was to see Laoch..... this was what I left for him....
IG Hard to believe isn't it.... I've heard so many similar comments of late, well meaning folks telling me women can't be millwrights, women can't work in the trades. meh. I've worked at far harder and dirtier than lots of those men...and met women who've been millwrights and tradespeople for over a decade. Having said that, these are men looking at it from the outside....the ones on the inside that I've met have mostly been very accepting and encouraging.....that may partly be due to being tired of looking at the boys all the time!!!! sorry...hahaha...really, I've yet to meet one that wasn't, I know there are some that aren't, I've talked to a couple of them. I could go on and on couldn't I? I have one more thing though.... Women can do anything Men can....and more! have a great one c u round!
I couldn't believe the father would tell his daughter she can't play hockey with the Blackhawks.....just cause a woman hasn't done it yet doesn't mean she couldn't. Show me a man carrying and delivering a baby, then I might believe they are tougher than women. hahaha Someone has to be the first, we've had women make the team as a golie, not sure they played any games.....damn now I need to go fact finding..... Ok, that's too much from this sick puppy....time to go....
April has arrived, company didn't.
suprise
C U Round! March 30 I'm so neglectful.....I'm getting so terrible at posting here. I feel like I'm ignoring a piece of my life by not blogging....yet....it's just not riding that high on my list of priorities. I miss it like hell, miss all the people I used to visit, though I do some silent stalking of my favs from time to time. Silent stalking feels so much like spying or eavesdropping sometimes...however, many times when I visit it isn't as Islandgirl and well, I could leave a comment, but it means..well, you know. I've left comments as my alter ego by accident a few times and that makes me a bit nervous.... Why is that I wonder? not important..... SO......
life for Islandgirl is progressing....onward and upward, albiet at a slow pace! Hard to believe it's been a year now since I left those beautiful islands behind. Pink was speaking to me then, now it seems to be Keith Urban. There are some parallels there. Amy (bbygirl) was pondering and trying to figure out what I was doing in school....no I wasnt' being cryptic (who me? cryptic? never.....lol)....I didn't really say anything about my program. I won't specify it, but I'll give you a bit of an overview.... I'm doing a program that is an introduction to Trade and Technical programs. We have the opportunity in this program to try out about 12-14 different programs. Some of them for a week and some will only be for a day or so. So far it's been awesome. I still have a couple more to try that really interest me, but I'm seriously thinking of millwright. Does that seem a stretch from business or animal technology? It does in some ways, but I've always loved mechanical stuff, and it's a trade that gives one the opportunity to do many different things, little bit of welding, little bit of machining, lots of mechanical problem solving....and sooo much more. Honestly, I havent' tried too many things in my life that I didn't enjoy....and not to toot my own horn or anything, but I haven't tried many things that I found to be so difficult that I was discouraged.....well all right mixing colors is an issue for me....but that's a whole other story! I've learned alot about myself in this program...well not just in the program but also in the almost two years I've been doing the islandgirlinprogress thing (holy crap, I can't believe I've been doing this for that long). I know I'm a bit introverted...that's not a bad thing, I walk to the beat of my own drummer and I'm content with that....I don't need too many people in my life, quite frankly too many people around and stuff going on drains me. I like to socialize, but I like it to be smaller and more intimate gatherings for the most part. I know I'm an easy going person, not too much fazes me. Sometimes I wonder if I'm not walking through life with blinders on....I'm attempting to reach out to people I don't know a little more. It's not that I'm shy, I just don't tend to let too many people truly inside. Does that sound ironic since I say so much sometimes in this blog? ah well... I've said it before, I'll say it again..... life.... a work in progress. February 20 snow, snow, snow.....I'm sooooo tired of snow......I was thanking the heavens that we weren't parts of New York when they got 8-9 feet of the stuff, but we've gotten our share as well. Our's has just come in spurts.
I've been in school for 5 weeks and we've had 4 snow days, we get a couple feet of the stuff, get shovelled out and then get some rain.........
Followed by MORE SNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Last night we got more...........
I was shoveling my walk and looking toward the side of the house (I'm in a basement suite and my door is at the back), I thought 'wow, that's awesome the drifting was in my favour for a change', boy was I wrong! I got to the corner of the house where I could see the road, or should I say where I should be able to see the road. There is a drift on the side of the house that is 6 ft deep and probably 8 ft long......the logistics are beyond me, I don't have anywhere to put it cause the passage between the house and the fence is only about 4-5ft........and it's full.
My dad is supposed to walk over his snowblower later to get the driveway done, good thing I have my spare car keys at his house or I don't know how we'd work it, I'd have no way to get the keys to him.
I know I'm not the only snowbound person in town. I'm thanking my stars that my door isn't one of those that is in a well......then I'd really be hooped!
I'm loving school so far, some of my classmates aren't understanding the 'warm and fuzzy' stuff we are doing right now.....they don't see any value to it yet, maybe they will when we start looking at careers in earnest.
hmmmmm....
I'm looking forward to an end to the snow
I'm not sure how I feel about the end of March coming.....there is supposed to be a visitor coming.....I'd probably feel better if I was certain they were coming.....then again............
have a great one,
hope you aren't snowed in too!
c u round! January 16 Heading back to real lifeSo,
I finally got the word.
I'm heading back to school January 22nd and I can't wait, I'm doing a program that I hadn't figured on originally, but truly it fits better I think. Not only will it help me with making a concrete and well informed decision about what I am going to do, but it has a personal development component that I think will do wonders.
It's been snowing here.....I still don't like snow.....
maybe one day I'll be able to get my butt back to a warmer clime to live....much to the chagrin of some of my family I'm sure......I'll be here for a few more years for sure, but I don't see it as a permanent thing to be honest. I love this city and province, but I just don't like the winter. Rules out Alberta too.....well ok it rules out a lot of Canada I guess doesn't it?
What else.....
hmmmm
Kidlet has been singing along with the song 'Watching you" by Rodney Atkins....of course there was a lyrical interpretation that gave her pause.......she said to me, what are camel pants? that's pretty funny....the line is supposed to be 'we got cowboy boots and cammo pants'....she thought they were camel pants.....LOL! She is also really liking the new song by Tim McGraw.....I think mostly cause of his daughters singing at the end, she has even adopted thier twang when she sings along.......now between her island speak, newfenese and a southern twang people are gonna get really confused! Her latest 'word' is t'is.....you know t'is for it is.......that'd be more of a brit thing though, well, it's a little newfie........he he he.
I'm really excited by the prospects the New Year is holding, so far I'm off to a roaring start.....really, things are looking so up that I've even moved on more.....and I anticipate that from here it will be a much easier road.
oh so much easier
one little detail would just make my day, but heaven knows if that one will come.....if it doesn't I'm not worried, I'll be in a better place with or without it.
that's it for me today......
c u round! December 26 Santa has been and goneSo the season is here, the halls are decked, the tree is up and there are even gifts under it already. Kidlet and I counted how many were for her and realized that there are as many there now as there were for all last Christmas, including those from Santa. I think this is going to be an incredible Christmas for her, maybe even a bit overwhelming, heck it's already overwhelming for me, I'm so accustomed to underwhelming ones!
I've figured out my favorite songs of the season this year..... #1 I want a Hippopotamus for Christmas...Gloria Peavey--------------i think kidlet likes it so much cause the two front teeth one doesn't apply to her! #2 Merry Christmas, wherever in the world you are...Terri Clarke--------------oh how it speaks to me...not in the obvious ways either #3 Grandma got run over by a reindeer...Irish Rovers-----------I've always liked it, kidlet just discovered it...she's put her own twist on it. .................of course there are more...Christmas isn't Christmas for me without some Bony M, Wham (I know, sheesh)....ah the list could go on and on, i'm not gonna put you all through that though. I got a really funny Newfie Christmas joke the other day....... here goes.......
A man in Newfoundland calls his son in Calgary three days before so you call yer sister in Vancouver & tell 'er." Frantic, the son calls his sister, who explodes on the phone. "No way dur gettin' divorced!" she shouts, "I'll take care of dis." She calls Newfoundland immediately & screams at her father "Yer not getting divorced. Don't do a single ting until I gets dere. I'm cawin' me brudder back & we'll both be dere by da mar. Until den don't do nuntin, DO YOU 'EAR ME??" and hangs up. The old man hangs up his phone & turns to his wife. "Okay" he says, "Dey're comin for Christmas & dey're paying deir own way!" Well I thought it was funny! I hope everyone out there has a wonderful season...... I know I will......except for a couple minor details that are nagging me.... typical....it's been a rough year all year, why should it improve now? Here's hoping next year starts out and shapes up better.
See, I didn't post this, cause somehow it just wasn't getting done and here I sit Christmas Night writing this................ It was awesome, on so many levels sure there were a couple of 'glitches', from the goose that couldn't get cooked (we had goose....and duck....and turkey) but one goose escaped getting cooked today..... shiver.....don't ask. And then there was the paparazzi failure, all right it was due to technical difficulty and the shutter bug is the most upset by it.....so many photo ops, sadly missed today..... Or maybe it would be the fact that we awoke at 4:15 AM.....yes.....we could have probably gotten another hour or two, but it was a risky proposition best avoided, so at 4:45 I sicked her on the Grandparents and we hit the tree, calmly. It was almost surreal. Of course the calm didn't remain, when all was opened and the decision was made which toy to break into first....well.....She thought it came with a bunch of stuff that wasn't included, typical eh? BUT THE TEARS IT CAUSED....I know she's a drama queen but sheesh, You'd have sworn the world was ending, and all for want of a crappy set of earbuds! It was over inside of a minute, I think she was so overwhelmed by it all that she just couldn't cope, everything was so good and then there were no headphones! lol... My sis and I had to regretfully tell everyone that there were only enough greens for the two of us and they were going to have to make due with cabbage......truth be told, except mom they all would have prefered to have the cabbage anyhow. mmmmm
I'm still stuffed and it's been hours. I got many lovely gifts today, the most lovely however was the ride home with kidlet.....having a chat about the day and her feelings, she kinda summed it up with being thrilled, amazed and suprised.....the big smiles all day said it all though.
Now I can't wait to see how happy she's gonna be to eat her first cookie out of her easy bake oven! I'm looking forward to next year, on so many levels.......did you see that? still in progress December 11 ...............I really am out of the loop here, so out of practice with this blogging thing.....so much to do to fix up my space, god it's a mess....from links that don't work to, well, it's just looking pretty fugly all in all.......sadly I can't seem to find the time, or maybe I just haven't got the inspiration back to really get back into this habit. It was habitual for me, even if I had to resort to just posting some funny I'd been sent....I enjoyed it, enjoyed reading others as well. Really, it was a labour of love that took about a pot and a half of coffee a day! lol....seriously. I know I have the time, heck I've been on the puter, doing research and, well, playing games online. (now here's the funny part, I'm typing the last half of this paragraph, after I've finished this whole entry....got it.....weird part....I've been playing webkinz, which flows into this entry.....I couldn't have come up with this kind of lead in if I had tried to do it!!!) what to post....hmmm.... well.. Kidlet is really into Webkinz. For those who don't know what they are (I don't know about other places but here they are HUGE) they are stuffed animals that come with a code so that you can log into thier site and register your pet, play with them, earn or win kinzcash and buy things for them in your 'house'......the kids can 'chat' with other owners, but the chat is limited to prescribed dialogue (which I think is a great thing, makes it pretty damn safe......)...... However..... the first time I logged into the site for Kidlet I was suprised by a couple of the games they had, I didn't object to them but I was pretty sure someone would have a problem with it.....yep.....between Bingo, the Wheel of WOW (BTW WOW upside down is MOM as my kidlet pointed out recently!) and the 'wishing well' (which is like a video slot machine)......yep....some folks have a problem with it, it's teaching them to gamble. I can understand to a point, however, the kids don't have to pay to play and every game gives them a return, even playing 'Rock, Paper, Scissors'. meh, some folks will complain about anything won't they? or maybe I'm just too lenient? nah..... I play the games more than Kidlet....I play, I make her kinzcash........and she spends it........
a little too much like real life in some ways don't you think?
December 07 Yes this is the return of islandgirl.......still in progress......So, what's been going on in the world of Island Girl? Well.......... TONS!!!! It's been busy......yet.......taking so long to achieve little things that it seems insanely slow. So far things are looking pretty positive, heading in a slightly different direction than I thought. A good one I think, just different. One of my girlfriends (same one I went 'round the bay' with) got tickets for us to go see INXS....IT WAS AWESOME, even allowing for the fact that JD still gives me the 'lounge-lizard' vibe. He is an awesome performer and covers all the old tunes impeccably I think. He went out into the audience three times and we were close enough that my friend got a hug, I got a pat and well......end result was we both got JD sweat on us! LOL!!!! They played two sold out shows here and really seemed to enjoy being in our city (OF COURSE!), maybe that has something to do with the fact that our city has bought the most copies of their album.....IN THE WORLD!......The girls sitting around us were all born about the time we were buying our first INXS albums and we were wishing beyond hope that they would come to the Stadium......sigh......they probably thought we were cracked, we were on our feet dancing and squealing the whole show......it was like turning the clock back 20 odd years for us.....a trip down memory lane.....awesome night. So....after an awesome concert in town, what does one do? Well if you are of legal drinking age (maybe even if you aren't), GEORGE STREET!!!! How do you not? it's right there......so yeah we made our way to a quiet little pub (we were a bit deaf by this point) and lo and behold when we sidled up to the bar who was sitting next to me but Alan Doyle from Great Big Sea, well ya know I had to say a little hello and let him know kidlet is a huge fan. He was a doll and told me to tell her he said hello, sounds kinda corny, but ya know then I could honestly go home and tell her he said it.......and it MADE her day, she loves them, maybe even more now. Looks like I'm headed back to school next month......I'm really excited, and a touch scared......big change and kind of commits me to being pretty poor for about the next 3 years. Been kinda poor for quite some time I guess when I think about it, so really that isn't a big change. I guess in the long run it should make it easier to start putting some cash away when I do start working....at least I'm hoping! The girlfriend I went to see INXS with recently celebrated her birthday and of course that entailed a trip to....where else? GEORGE STREET! Yep, we were on the town, being really relaxed and not figuring to make it much after midnight.......HA.......3:30 we got home..........started off at one of our favorite pubs and when it was time for a smoke decided we would have a little walk down the street at the same time. We ran into someone I've known for about 23 years, he is in a band that was playing at one of the clubs (one of the few that don't charge cover.....cover.....grrrr....we won't go there!) so we went in.....they were great and to add to the great music we had the added bonus of having a couple of 24 yr olds hitting on us......tee hee.....I was driving and the gf was already feeling good and not wanting to push the envelope as she had an early morning and busy day ahead of her, otherwise we would have made them buy us some drinks.......they still wouldn't have gotten anywhere, but we had a great time chatting and laughing with them. Still, to get a perspective on the age difference, I babysat kids when I was in my teens that are older than these boys......shudder....
Still, it was fun. Good to be getting out and about..... having fun..... There have been a couple other developments, well, I'm calling them developments but I'm sure there is a better word for it. I'm still waiting to see how it pans out and when....could be interesting to say the least. Then again....... could be nothing. I know, obtuse as ever.......but I have a computer of my own now that works, and I'm back online....... hang on and we'll see what develops. It's officially the return of the Island Girl...... September 25 moving.....in so many waysWell, moving applies in so many ways right now......
I've found an apartment, I'm in the process of moving in.....I think I've got pretty much everything I need.....it's been humbling and awe inspiring to see the generousity of friends and family.
I had to do some plastering and painting in the apartment, really I could have painted the whole place, as it is though I only got to do the kidlets bedroom and playroom and the hallway.....I'm not buying paint and there was only enough to do that much so far. I feel confident the landlord will cough up for the rest that I need. Painting kidlets room was cathartic for me.....I had a couple of lightbulb moments tied to it. Main one was the realization that decorating a room for her is something I have wanted to do for a long time, but was never able to......which had there been a good reason I could live with, however, there was no good reason.
I also realized this week that the freedom of having my own space is going to be a fabulous thing......especially as it is my own space, I don't have anyone to answer to other than me and my kidlet......and I know how happy she is to have this pretty room she knows mama spent lots of time getting ready for her....even the idea she is getting a playroom for her is incredible. She's so proud of her mama, which gives me a real sense of pride, which is something that was stripped from me for so long.
I'm still a bit shell shocked though and have found that others can see it in me......I can only imagine how people must have percieved me in oiltown, I'm not near as shell shocked now as I was then. Well maybe I have been for the last couple weeks, I got some shocking news that I'm still trying to figure out.....the news and the events afterwards just aren't meshing. Sometimes life is very strange. I think the thing that is killing me most about the news is the way some people can fall into the biggest pile of shit and still come up smelling pretty good......why is it that some people never seem to have to face any real consequences? I'm gonna change that, mark my words. Being able to impose consequence will be equivilant to the closure I have thus far been denied.
Sometimes you're the windshield, sometimes you're the bug......right now I feel like the bug....I'm working on being the windshield.
I had a blind date this week.....first time I've ever done that.....seems a nice enough guy, but I'm not really ready to move on as yet. I've realized I am ready in some ways, but.....well.....those are things that I can either live without, take care of myself or...well, I am female and it's never too hard to find some relief when you're a chick! lol......doesn't hurt to have a good rack either, as I was reminded by a friend last week......damn I wish I had known he was so entranced by 'the girls' back in april........sigh.....funny how you miss things when you are in the state I was/am.
I'm still persuing some meetings, still trying to get the help I need to get all my ducks in a row.....somedays it feels like I'm getting somewhere with it, others feel like I'm in the middle of a HUGE waste of my time.
It's my time though.......
guess it'll just take what it takes......
yep....
More crazy ramblings from the island girl.......Did you really expect anything different though?
hehe....
I know you didn't, but I had to ask!
Have a great one.....
I am! August 26 left hand right hand.........why don't they ever seem to know what the other is doing?Been a while, figure I'm due a post.
the left hand right hand thing is, well, me trying to find my way through the web of agencies that should be able to help me....feels like I'm going in circles, probably cause I am....one place says 'go here' I go there only to be told to go back to the first place.....I'm getting there though....I think! lol
I think I'm finding the lack of visiting my favorite blogs almost as disappointing as my lack of posting here.....sigh....It's getting better all the time though, honest.
Last weekend kidlet and I went with a GF and her son on an 'excursion round the bay'....we went to her family's cabin and spent the days touring. Went back to the town my folks lived in when I was born, the house has been torn down, but the town hasn't changed much! Well, maybe it's gotten prettier, it certainly wasn't seeing near the tourists it does now.
We played tourist on the Sunday, decided we had to get some pictures of the sign for the town that people find the name of to be suprising.......DILDO.....yep, we got the 'welcome to' sign, we got a pic of Captain Dildo (he's really rather phallic looking I think)....we got a bunch of pics on route...I'll do up a new photo album here in the next couple days (can't upload the photos from this puter.....grrrr).....the pics made taking the long way home well worth it. Well it did to us! I go the pics posted in an album called 'excursion around the bay'...here is the funny part about the tour we did regarding the place names.....first place we passed that fit it all was Backside Pond, then came Dildo, then Shag Rock....then Hearts Desire, Hearts Delight and Hearts Content....we could have gone on and gone to Come by Chance and Conception Bay.....of course there are a few more 'choice names' I'm forgetting but these give a good feel for those unfamiliar with the area.
On the tourist note........I had a conversation with a neighbor the other day, about a topic that has come up here a few times this summer(usually in letters to the editor)....there was a real problem here finding accomodations and rental cars around the end of July begining of August....right about the time of the regatta and George Street festival. One of the letters (I believe) was from someone who had arrived here at the airport with the wife and kids.........and was upset that he couldn't get a rental car or a hotel room.......Does the word RESERVATIONS mean anything? I do understand the frustration, but you have to remember this is a small city compared to most capitals and though the province is large our population isn't really...sure we have tourists every year, the numbers are getting greater but it is during that two week period at the end of July early August that, well......we're overrun! LOL
On life?
well......
I HAVE WHEELS!!!!!!!!! WEEEEEEEE!!!!!
I'm a little scared though........I think it may have a real 'thirst' for the gas.....shouldn't be too bad it's a 6.....I woulda told me grandfather thanks but keep it if it were a V8! Nice to have this independance for sure.....now I just need to find a home. I'm tired of living in limbo.
On another happy note.....I have puter geek friends....one figures he'll be able to 'hook me up'....just gonna take a bit to find all the pieces required. Then again, i may just go the dell route through our phone company.....I miss my laptop
 ....s'all right though, it's only stuff.well.....that's it for now......
I'm outta here.......
C U ROUND!
August 12 sitting in limbo, flying kitesYep, that about sums it up.....still in limbo, feels like I'll never get out of it. I know that I will, but I'm not the most patient person in the world, I want results and answers now!!! lol! Wading through the process of trying to get into school and get funding is slow and tedious, it's not gonna be an easy process either, something to do with living away for so long maybe? hahaha, still...it's coming together slooooooowly.
Went to the park yesterday with my sis and some friends, and of course the kids.......we went kite flying. Kidlet found it pretty frustrating, we had a simple dollar store diamond kite, not the easiest kind to get up and keep up....everyone else had fancy newfangled ones. Not only did kidlet think I'd never get it up, noone thought I would.....never tell me I can't do something.....I got it up and all were suprised.....alright, even I was! It did take a lot of adjustments to get it to fly, but that is part of the fun of flying kites isn't it? The joke of course was that the only reason I could get it to fly was cause I'm so old (funny how having ten years on people can give them the chance to call you old! lol....they did also say I didn't look as old as I am so I guess it's all ok).
Kidlet and I had no clue where in the park they were and we parked by the duck pond and then went to find them. Kidlet could happily have spent the whole afternoon at the duck pond feeding the ducks. There were tons, some geese and cygnets too. She got a chance when we were on the way back to feed some of them, in fact she had them eating right out of her hand. She has always had a way with animals, maybe she will be a vet like she's been saying since she was 2. Her favorite was the one little duckling that was in the melee of ducks....it was taking food from her hand too so she had a chance to pet it a little. Of course now she wants to go back again today....and it's an ugly one today......FOG!!!! She also was reminded by petting the duckling that there is a petting farm here, guess we'll have a trip there too! I'll certainly take her just before Halloween as it is at the same place they have the Pumpkin patch, and where else would one go to pick out thier Halloween Pumpkin? It's a good time and I'm sure it'll be me and my sis and both of the girls......grannie will probably come too.
As good as yesterday was it also had some low points...was chatting with one of the boys and he had gotten a message from his dad, the content wasn't suprising, but it really bothered me that he could say to his son that he and I are finished, but yet he still hasn't the balls to say that to me. I'm not suprised he feels that way, I've been resigned to it myself for quite sometime....but the last time we talked about 'life' he was indicating he wanted to work it out still.....that was quite some time ago.....I think it's the fact that he hasn't the balls to talk to me and that he is letting that interfere with talking to our daughter....well, that on top of his lack of support. I could go on and on but well if he had his priorities in order I guess we wouldn't be in this boat. meh......
Fog or none, maybe we will go to the duck pond.....at least that'll put me in a happy place! |
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